HARRO. Am in bed now as I type this w my iPhone. Figured that it's very convenient when I wna blog smtg wordy w no pix/a few pix. Cho comfy under my comforter & super cold environment :D Pros to this is, you know, like a late night phone call or text conversation. That's when you get to know someone a whole lot more. A whole different side. Cons, well, I think I'm able to doze off anytime *yawns*

Hurmm, all of a sudden I kinda feel the need to voice out how I REALLY feel about friends.

There are fake people everywhr, so how do I know whether or not someone is true? I didn't. I used to be this naive girl who trusted people easily & thought that everyone treats me good/treats me as their sister/treats me like a real friend that they'd protect if anything happened to me. Friends who sweet talk are the ones I immediately fell for. Come to think of it, what went through my brain at the time? How could I be so dumb & gullible? For instance, I did what other people please & said okay to their requests without second thought. Wrong move.

I went to the club w a whole buncha friends when I was only 17. Yep, old story. I was underage & it was the start of getting myself exposed to nightlife, under the influence of my seniors. I was playful, immature & enjoyed it all, didn't have much discipline. It was 3AM+, time to head to the carpark then home. Otw down the escalator, someone called my phone. I answered, & one of my so-called friend grabbed it from me, saying that I was tipsy & couldn't speak properly. He hurriedly made his way towards the front of the crowd. I continued walking & when I saw him again I asked for my phone, in of which he said he passed it to another guy (who was also in my group). I asked him in panic & he said the same shit. I then realized that it was gone. Gone, & I'll never get it back. Tears welled up in my eyes but no one wants to admit or return my precious Motorola RAZR2 V9 to me. It was an expensive phone that time, plus it was in a color that I super loved. Bought @ about RM1,200-RM1,400 if I'm not mistaken.


This! Awesome gadget back in year 2008. Flip, my favorite. I can remember how luxurious the design was. I miss it & I'd want it as my collection now, if I ever come across this again (T^T) Thr was also a rose gold one *faints* my favoritest color of ALL for watches.

And guess what, I was STILL friends w them after that incident WTF. Till now I can't accept the fact that I was so brainless. Bought the same one in black after that, cos the red/maroon one was limited edition *sobs* Plus it's not like I've ever done anything bad to them or offended them in any way, I was nice to my friends, so whai?? (T__T) I guess people can be heartless like that. But if it were me, I can't. I simply can't steal from anyone, what more my own friends. It's like asking me to hurt an animal, or be mean to an elderly, I can't, no matter the situation.

I'm not trying to be innocent here, it's true. If I were to act innocent why am I even revealing my past underage clubbing stories lol. Think about it before judging.

BUT, I would so not hesitate to stab them w a spoon if I have another chance to. #kiddingnotkidding

& I was a very cincai person when it came to friends. Whenever anyone suggested a plan & asked me if I'm in, I'll say anything (−_−;) “Wna go GENTING yumcha?” (at midnight) Anything. “Let's go race car!” Anything. “Wna go (wherever that was)? Got fight need to settle.” Anything. Walao, I really need to thank all the Gods in the world that I am so much wiser now. I still had my conscience in certain angles though. Of course I won't agree when it comes to sexual related issues la. I had no brain but not no brain until that extend lolol.

& you'll never imagine what I went through w one of my lousy ex boyfriend. He treated me so badly I could never imagine myself being treated that way. The roughest moment in my life. I can't believe I stayed. Shud've got rid of him after seeing his true colors but I put up w everything. I was listing out a few examples of what he did to me but I decided to erase them in the end. Duwanna mention anymore, it was really that bad. People who knew always end up in fury ;/

After getting back up on my feet, I totally changed. I am much stronger now, mentally, & I'm happy being this way ;D I've grown up throughout the years & learned so much. I know what's right & what's wrong or what decisions to make. My head can think straight & clear, the past is like a blur to me alrdy, and I have learned to let it go, start over anew. Everyone makes mistakes. What matters is to not repeat those mistakes.

Qualities in a friend that I consider true:

  • Honest & loyal.
  • Someone who sticks by yr side through the good & bad times.
  • Someone who doesn't believe the rumors that others spread about you. They don't even feel the need to ask. In fact they'll feel mad at the people who tell those lies about you & won't want to speak to them again, ever.
  • A friend who doesn't doubt you but if he/she ever does, he/she'll talk it out first before jumping straight into conclusion & ignore or avoid you.
  • Always there for you.
  • A loyal friend will be by your side even when you are not in a great mood.
  • Doesn't leave you out of anything.
  • A true friend doesn't take advantage of you. Be it transportation, money, etc etc.
  • A good friend is at least a fairly good listener. They can't read your mind, but chances are they can usually tell when you're happy, sad, excited, shocked or upset.
  • Willing to fight for yr friendship & never walking away.
  • Someone who has yr back & stands up for you.
  • Protects you from harm & keeps you out of danger or trouble whenever they have the opportunity to do so.
  • Considerate.
  • Someone who is understanding & listens to yr problems without complaining. Tries to give good advice or figure out a solution together.
  • Not calculative.
  • Someone who wants the best for you.
  • A supportive friend of you & yr goals will not keep dragging you to parties or any other sort of entertainment although you've alrdy declined countless times bcos you have smtg to do the next day & he/she doesn't.
  • A true friend will help you become the person you want to be. They won't try to change who you are or get you into situations that make you uncomfortable or put you at risk of losing something that matters to you.
  • Someone you can trust.
  • A true friends doesn't lie or backstab.
  • Someone you can count on.
  • Makes it clear that they really do care about you.
  • A true friend accepts who you are. They are also patient with you when you make mistakes, even big ones, & learn how to forgive you when you hurt them.
  • Respect. Everyone has different opinions & it is important your friend shows respect for your point of view. It is not necessary he/she agrees with your points & can sometimes try to change your mind but he need always to respect you, even if he/she disagrees with you.
  • A friend is not only valuable for your problems but you need someone to make fun with. Everyone needs to laugh & some humour is necessary in yr friendship.
  • Good company.
  • Encouragement. There are always periods in yr life when you feel down or maybe a little depressed. A good friend will encourage his/her friend to do things for feeling better. Encouragement is a great quality every friend should have for helping each other through a difficult process.

P/S: Looks like I have too much to ask now after all that's happened to me before hahah. Oh well, at least I know how to think alrdy :) I even quit going to clubs often for a very, very long time. I only go when it's someone's birthday. I don't enjoy it anymore & I prefer doing productive + beneficial things w my life. Duwanna have anymore regrets & I can't afford to waste anymore time *shows tiny non-existent muscle* wtf.
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  1. I love this post! I was naive and been betrayed by too many people too. It's hard to find true friends nowadays